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| Rizwan |
It had been months since I’d gotten a good night’s sleep.
I’d wake up gasping from bad dreams throughout the night,
and I’d feel an immediate knot in my stomach as soon as it was time to get up
and face the day.
When the morning beckoned, all I wanted to do was hide under
the covers.
But even when hiding from the physical world, my thoughts
could still find me, belaboring on in an incessant stream of “have-tos” and
“should-bes”.
I’d wake up feeling guilty about all the things I hadn’t
gotten done the day before, and overwhelmed by the mounting goals that still
loomed before me.
I’d roll out of bed and go straight to the computer, with a
frazzled and weary mind, to start attempting to do all the work that all those
thoughts kept reminding me about.
My work was stressing me out to the point where I felt
depressed, always anxious, and completely unhappy with where I was in my life.
If you had looked at it all on paper, you might have thought
I was living a pretty awesome life: married to my best friend, living in a town
I adore in a great little house that we own, successfully self-employed for
more than five years with the freedom to decide how I want to spend my time
each day.
Problem was, I wasn’t present enough to truly enjoy any of
it. Instead, I was stuck in my head, wrapped up in a big ball of expectation.
Caught in a spiral of all the things I had to do, so I could
be who I should have been, I forgot about the things I wanted to do so I can be
who I am.
I felt jealous of where others were in comparison, weighed
down by self-doubt that I wasn’t good enough to accomplish all the things I
wanted, and so scrambled, with my energy dispersed into too many things at
once.
Then, I went and saw Ms. Renee, an empath who could see
right through me.
She could see the anxiety, overwhelm, and self-imposed
burdens that I had created. She reminded me that I need to take care of myself
in order to have the energy to do this work, and that all I had to do to get
out of my head, was to get into my body.
I came home with a whole new attitude and belief in myself,
and got dedicated to making some real shifts in my life.
I made it a priority to meditate regularly, exercise, and
get my veggies. I changed course with my business to escape the stressful
elements and get closer to what my heart really wanted all along.
I detached from critical, judgmental people in my life and
paid more attention to who I really wanted to spend time with. And I felt a
weight off my shoulders, allowing me to go easier on myself and not always
expect so darn much.
As soon as I committed to this new journey, doors started
opening immediately, including an invite to coffee from a friend of a friend,
to talk about a project idea she had.
We connected instantly, and about five chats over coffee
later, realized that we had both recently reached our own sort of rock bottoms
and were ready to make a change to live happier, more fulfilling lives.
We joined forces, became business partners and fast friends,
and have been helping each other face our fears, battle mind gremlins, and
pursue our true passions ever since. We’re happier then ever being able to help
others do the same, each day!
Now, I wake up with a smile on my face, feeling grateful for
the life I have, excited for what the day might bring, and happy to be right
where I am.
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